The Open Door - My Fading Dreams
Can you not hear the violins playing?Why is it that you hate me so?
Can you not remember your selfish past?
Once again your world will come crashing down,
Do you not care?
I sway in my loneliness,
I’m too afraid to sleep,
Yet my nightmares are ever near,
Don’t deny, you know the pain,
For you too cannot sleep, you sway alone,
Haunted by your grievous nightmares,
Your dreams drift ever far,
Everything about him,
Was more than just great,
But he didn’t want me,
I had no chance at any rate,
The violins have shifted; there goes the wind,
It echoes an eerie silence from our souls,
Can you not hear the silent solace of the moon?
There goes the last open door; closed, locked, and chained,
But still you deny,
What you know is so real,
You cannot escape fates cruel ways,
Yet still you walk away, ignorant, denying what you know is true,
My child, stay near, don’t stray far,
For the farther you stray, the more the light dims,
Until you fall into utter silence and complete darkness,
Who then can be your savior?
Take my hand; grab it while you can,
Don’t lose out on this one chance,
For once it’s gone; you’ll slip, you’ll fall,
Into a darkened abyss,
Dance your dance,
So sweetly, so slow,
Do you think it’s over? It’s gone?
Don’t turn your back or it’ll turn on you,
My child, just listen,
Just hear me out,
You know the end is near, so close,
Then why do you still deny?
Hold your white rose,
Let it prick your delicate hand,
I know it hurts, but be patient,
It’ll remind you of what’s real,
Are you reminded? Do you remember?
Or has your loneliness corroded you?
It’s been eating away at your soul for so long,
You eyes have turned black as coal, no emotion inside,
Now the piano will play, one sad note after another,
Don’t grieve, don’t bleed, you know what’s real,
The light comes towards you, but you push it away,
How can you say you’re of the dark?
Don’t call out, if you expect no return,
I’m always here, by your side, but you don’t want me to be near,
But why? Why is this so? I only wish to help,
It seems you don’t want help, so why fake the pain?
Are you lost? Is that it?
So confused, you can’t find your way,
You’ve strayed for so long, you’ve lost your path,
And now the darkness keeps a cover over your eyes,
You can’t see, you’re so afraid,
It matters no more where you run, for you no longer know where you are going,
You might as well run yourself in everlasting circles,
For fate has finally veiled your sight,
But not it’s gone; you can no long scream,
It’s of no use now; the dark angel seeks his revenge,
But why? Why did you taunt him? When you knew it was wrong,
I am of now no use to you, I can no longer help.
You have fallen into the darkened abyss,
Your world has finally come crashing down,
The angel of light that once drew near to you,
Is now pushing you away, do you still not understand?
The angel of darkness, is drawing ever so near,
What shall you do? Where shall you go? You wait until now to think of this?
I’m sorry, so very sorry my love,
But there’s nothing I can do now,
I only wish you had let me help you,
Just a bit earlier,
Then maybe I could have saved you from your torturous end,
But not I lay in pain, tortured, with just the thought of your suffering,
Why is it that you hate me?
And what is it that I love you?
Let my light shine over yours,
Then maybe, just maybe, you might have a chance,
But this time, grab my hand, please do,
Then maybe, we’ll be able to push the angel of darkness away,
And maybe, together, we’ll be able to unveil your sight,
But don’t count on everlasting happiness,
For you know all too well that fate has chosen otherwise,
I can only grant a limited time of happiness,
Before the dark abyss completely consumes you,
And your past catches up with you, and you’re lost forevermore,
Don’t get caught in the storm; don’t look back,
Keep on straight, keep on forward, don’t go astray,
For the light cannot be found on a path led astray,
But you already knew this, isn’t that so?
The piano has stopped, and so have the violins and the wind,
A complete and utter silence befalls the land,
Do you know what this means my love?
I’ll leave you to figure it out, but can you?
Don’t give up, you’ll find what you’re looking for,
Just believe, believe what you know is true,
Don’t deny what you have done, and don’t deny what you’re doing,
And your path will be revealed before you,
So please my love, don’t underestimate your decisions,
For the angel of darkness is never far behind,
Neither is the dark abyss,
Are you sure you’re ready? Are you sure you can handle it… on your own?
Hate Me
Unethical silence,Bearing down like the gravitational pull,
The screams unheard; but in my mind,
Please make them stop!
In the darkness, I am home,
Dagger-like needles lay about,
Thrust into me with corroded steel,
Scarlet blood now my cover,
Deceive me not; I know I’m fake,
LIES! LIES! LIES! There was not apart of me true,
Punishment, sweet punishment; oh torture me so,
Daddies little nothing needs to be beaten,
Infinite ticking,
The clock of death rolls on,
For one who wishes not to live,
A mere lifetime feels eternal,
Burn me slowly with the flames of loneliness,
Inject me with the will to live,
Then abandon me to suffer cruelly,
I tremble and shiver from pain,
Please make it stop!
Everything! Just go away!
I struggle to keep my sanity,
Yet to all I appear normal,
Leave me be, in this dark corner,
Forget me? I am nothing to be remembered,
Slowly dying a gruesome death,
My wrists are slit as they bleed out,
Erase my existence; forget me you will,
I was not of importance to anyone, not even myself,
Hate me, despise me, ridicule me, then stab me!
I am nothing.
