One Way Love
What is it about the smile?Upon your face,
Your sparkling eyes,
Your warm embrace,
What is it about you,
That drives me wild?
Something I couldn’t contain,
Like a wanting child,
In this dark, cold room,
I only sit and cry,
For I knew so truly,
That he’d never be mine,
Everything about him,
Was more than just great,
But he didn’t want me,
I had no chance at any rate,
He had the girl,
He’d been eyeing all along,
Still I’d question,
If anything with me was wrong,
After weeks and months,
Even years with this pain,
I finally figured,
That it would always be the same,
He was the only reason,
I lived this life,
But since he didn’t want me,
Why should I strive?
I cried and cried,
Swaying back and forth,
Gashing myself with the knife,
This is all I was worth,
I couldn’t help but to carve in my arm,
What it would look like if it was meant to be,
Life, love, a family,
You, me, the kids living happily,
All over my legs,
I wrote his name,
Remembering all the times,
My love went in vain,
As I was bleeding,
I saw his face,
His sparkling eyes,
Felt his warm embrace,
This was what I wanted all along,
Trembling, I didn’t want this dream to end,
Tears falling continuously I looked at him with love,
But he slipped away and called it pretend,
He said I was nothing,
Not even a spare,
He said he hated me,
And that he’d never care,
There was nothing I could do,
My life slipping away fast,
Tried my best to hold on,
I wanted the image of him to last,
But I could feel his violence,
His brutal touch,
Was a simple hug,
Really that much?
Still it mattered,
As my heart was slowing,
I knew very well,
Without him I was going,
My vision was blurring,
I saw him fade away,
I only wished,
That he would stay,
But I came to the reality,
That I’ve been living a dream,
“I will always love you,
No matter how bad things will seem…”
Mirror Mirror
Mirror mirror on the wall,Can you tell me how I’ll fall?
Will it be by a razor, small, metal and thin?
Ripping at my flesh and skin,
Will it be by a gun, a small deadly shot?
Going against all I was taught,
Mirror mirror on the wall,
Can you show me how I’ll fall?
Will I lay dead in a puddle of crimson blood?
What happens when you’re torn of love,
Will I die with a shot in my head?
Either way I’ll end up dead,
How, why and will?
All depends on your status and skill,
Do you have the guts? Do you have the nerve?
To go for your wrists and make that curve,
You prefer a gun? That’s fine by me,
There’s no difference really,
Mirror mirror on the wall,
It is time; I’ve made the call,
I went down by the razor, one simple slit,
Breaking my vein and weakening my grip,
Mirror mirror on the wall,
I’m the girl that made the fall,
And when I look in the mirror, all I can see,
Is the bloody reflection of a former me.
Painful Love
I am cold and I am dead,Laying motionless in a puddle of red,
By my side, a sharp silver knife,
A symbol of death that took my life,
My big blue eyes have now become red,
And it's all after the words you said,
You turned your back and you were so cold,
Your mind was made, you acted so bold,
But not thinking of the consequences of your act,
You thought my love for you would still be intact,
But you were wrong, and now i'm dead,
The opposite of what you thought had happened instead,
But now you lay, cold, bloody, and dying,
Because you knew that to me you were lying,
The knife has now become your symbol of death,
As you painfully gasp for your final breath,
And now you lay, cold, bloody, and dead,
Your whole body is now covered in red,
You've felt the same pain that i have felt,
And now you know the cruelness you've dealt,
Now our hearts are no longer here,
But in Hell, Burning with fear,
Our bodies are hurt, bloody, and stained,
From life to after life, we're only pained,
"I love you more than life,
And I hate myself for making you use the knife,
I'm so sorry that i made you cry,
And for breaking your heart, I ask myself why?"
That's what you said, when you held me near,
And in your safe arms, I felt no fear,
The pain in my heart has been blown away,
And in it's place your love will stay...
